Paulita Pappel, Lustery, Ersties, and my corrective emotional experience concerning sex and porn

Paulita Pappel, Lustery, Ertsies and my corrective emotional experience concerning sex and porn Paulita Pappel, a 33 year old, Spanish, sex positive feminist filmmaker, pornographer, and founder of, and a force behind, profoundly changed the way I think and feel about love, sex, women, and pornography. I had an emotionally corrective experience I […]

On Polyamory: part 3 (a variation on part 1)

On  Polyamory: part 3 (a variation on part 1) Maybe it was an auditory hallucination resulting from my sexual frustration and wishful imagination, but the moaning and sexual phrases I thought I heard a neighbor of mine scream (presumably in the midst of fucking and/or making love) blazed through nerves with extreme intensity, like New […]

On polyamory: part 2– Some observations on sexual attraction

On polyamory: part 2— Some observations on sexual attraction    A girl once called me ugly.[1] Fifteen or so years later, the remark still bugs me. Sometimes, when a woman attracts me, I think “she’d never fuck me![2]” And then I fall into hate with my face, and physics, and fate for damning me with […]

Investing more in my love, foundations, & fundamentals (Monday, August 17th, 2020)

It just occurs to me: my anxiety is so embedded and in some respects so unconscious that in the midst of certain activities, like reading my emails, I race to complete them as quickly as possible as if chores as opposed to meaningful life to-do’s. I’m reading my emails this morning with unusual relaxation this […]

Why honesty really does tend to seem like “the best policy” ( Thursday, July 30th, 2020)

The idea that “honesty is the best policy” and that it is virtuous/ethical/moral/the “right” or “correct” or “proper” principle to adhere to—I tend to agree. In the midst of my agreement I can’t help but laugh about it because there’s the more abstract and esoteric engagement with the principle—you know, those lists we keep in […]

Some of the Psychology of Interdisciplinary Thinking, the Covid Pandemic, and Erectile Dysfunction (Sunday, July 26th, 2020)

Learning to Reach for the Northern Star and Toss the Anchor into the Sea It is one of those mornings when the mind struggles to focus, not so much as a symptom of Attention Deficit Disorder…though some people claim to believe A.D.D. is my fundamental ailment or struggle with my constant shifts on objects of […]

Contemplating Sexual Desires With Compassion (Saturday, July 25th, 2020)

Oh…striving for competence! And along with that, a conscience…embrace of ethics/morality (and already I see two different directions this stream of thoughts could go: 1)) deep into the abstract forests of why we might suppose such a thing as ethics/morality exists or…ought to be recognized as a conducive standard to living out of ***respect*** for […]

Sexual Orientation, Philosophy, & Evidence (Friday, July 24th, 2020)

The Role of Philosophy in Forming Certain Sexual Thoughts, Feelings, Desires, and Speculations One reason it’s so hard for some of us to think about and discuss sex openly and comfortably, I suspect (and I emphasize the word “suspect”; just like the cops identify someone as a suspect but can’t yet compile quite enough EVIDENCE […]

How was I to deal with these thoughts and feelings I could not condemn or “reason” away with science? (Thursday, July 23rd, 2020)

1. Simply Being Aware of Thoughts, Feelings, and Desires Have you ever asked yourself (weird as this question may seem to some of you) “do I REALLY think what I THINK I think? Haha. By the way– does that make any sense to you?   More concretely (or at least as sort of concrete as […]