Erotic film actress Heidi Switch makes porn and body image deeper (and promotes more ethics)

“Put yourself on the pedestal,” said “adult performer” (what do actresses and actors in XXX movies prefer to be called? “Porn star?” “Adult film actress/actor?” “erotica entertainer?” Wikipedia—which I always hate to cite, but is a fine enough source for this context—lists “pornographic film actor/actress, adult entertainer, porn star” and lists “actor” and “sex worker” […]

The fear of death and living life in vain

…The fear of death and living life in vain… even to say it, as I sit here, at my desk, which is like my own private Star Trek holodeck, and flight deck/cockpit, where I figuratively “fly” to and/or through my abstract thoughts—like planets and their moons–, feelings—like looming changes in gravitational forces, brightness and dimness […]

On polyamory: part 2– Some observations on sexual attraction

On polyamory: part 2— Some observations on sexual attraction    A girl once called me ugly.[1] Fifteen or so years later, the remark still bugs me. Sometimes, when a woman attracts me, I think “she’d never fuck me![2]” And then I fall into hate with my face, and physics, and fate for damning me with […]

“Let’s get down to business I don’t got no time to play around what is this (Eminem)”; “We be taking care of business” (Randy Bachman) — I.e., “Mixing Business & Pleasure” & Art! (Tuesday, August 25th, 2020)

To be an money making artist who keeps his soul When entrenched in my “artist role” often any thought of theoretical business savvy shakes me up in distressing way thus interfering in my conquest for getting paid nice for my hard work.(And, as I believe I’ve mentioned before, since childhood the belief that art is […]

Hopefully tomorrow (Monday, August 24th, 2020)

Spent much of the day polishing my introductory essay: “My Aesthetics of Internetism & Self Improvement, i.e., An Introduction to my Diary Blog.” Lost track of time. I meant to alternate back and forth between revising a little here and there and noting here thoughts based on those revisions. Usually I finish a post by…latest […]

Best pathways, neural and other?– journal– Friday, July 17th, 2020

As you may see from yesterday’s post, for at least the time being, I’ve taken to a more focused and elaborate commitment to journaling, the most forceful and impactful inspiration being the neurologist Tara Swart and her book The Source.  (A book by the way that seems to me so crucial to read for its […]