Erotic film actress Heidi Switch makes porn and body image deeper (and promotes more ethics)

“Put yourself on the pedestal,” said “adult performer” (what do actresses and actors in XXX movies prefer to be called? “Porn star?” “Adult film actress/actor?” “erotica entertainer?” Wikipedia—which I always hate to cite, but is a fine enough source for this context—lists “pornographic film actor/actress, adult entertainer, porn star” and lists “actor” and “sex worker” […]

How to feel sexy and hot when complimenting a woman you find sexy and hot…

I would feel a lot sexier if I could reduce the intense social anxiety that often seizes me, especially in group conversations. It’s not just women who I’m especially attracted to who intimidate me (ah, what a bitter-sweet type of intimidation; the outstandingness of the feeling so timeless and enlivening, those intense surges of excitement!) […]

On Polyamory: part 3 (a variation on part 1)

On  Polyamory: part 3 (a variation on part 1) Maybe it was an auditory hallucination resulting from my sexual frustration and wishful imagination, but the moaning and sexual phrases I thought I heard a neighbor of mine scream (presumably in the midst of fucking and/or making love) blazed through nerves with extreme intensity, like New […]

‘Internet compressed maximalism,’ part 1 (if the term isn’t yet coined); also known as ‘On chronic indecisiveness version # 2)

“ ‘Internet-compressed maximalism,’ part 1, (if the term isn’t yet coined[1]); also known as ‘On chronic indecisiveness-version #2’” *I dedicate this poem to Dr. Rosa Soto, Ben Nobuto, Dr. Stefano Eroclino, Nick Levey, Dr. Martha Witt, Dr. John Parras, Professor Christopher Salerno, Dr. Phillip Cioffari, and Dr. Leonard Winogora who encouraged and assisted my attempts […]

On wanting to be a rich prosimetrist or ‘physics #2’ or ‘a third iteration of a sketch of a philanthropist reflecting on being rich’ (Bernards, NJ; between Monday, September 21st and Friday, October 9th, 2020)

Bernards New Jersey, Between Monday, September 21st and Friday, October 9th, 2020 “On wanting to be a rich prosimetrist or ‘physics #2’ or ‘a third iteration of a first sketch of a philanthropist reflecting on being rich’” For Ashley How surprisingly exciting! For the first time in my 21 years or so[1] of creative writing […]

Contemplating karma with respect to Trump, Covid 19, and the election (Biden/Harris 2020 ‘Unity Over Division’ ‘my candidates are Joe Biden*Kamala Harris for the soul of our nation (Bernards, NJ; Between Wednesday Sept. 23 & Friday Oct. 2, 2020)

Bernards, NJ; Between Wednesday, September 23rd, 2020 and Friday, October 2nd, 2020: “Contemplating karma with respect to Trump, Covid19, and the election (Biden/Harris 2020 ‘Unity Over Division’ ‘my candidates are Joe Biden * Kamala Harris for the Soul of our Nation [1]’)” “I am downhearted not, although it seems/ The new birth is abortive in […]

The great information flood (William Paterson University ((Wayne)) & Bernards, NJ; Between Tuesday, February 25th & Tuesday, September 15th, 2020)

***WILLIAM PATERSON UNIVERSITY (WAYNE) & BERNARDS, NJ; BETWEEN TUESDAY, FEBRUARY 25TH & TUESDAY, SEPTEMBER 25TH, 2020*** The great information flood  “And it’s a hard, and it’s a hard, it’s a hard, and it’s a hard And it’s a hard rain’s a-gonna fall” Bob Dylan His mind was overstimulated  Too much, it seemed, needed to be articulated […]

*SHOW ME THE MONEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!* (Thursday, August 13th, 2020)

Well… I faced my fear yesterday and created my first “donation button” for this here diary blog of mine. Why did I fear it? As I verbalized it in a passage from a draft of the introduction essay I’m working on: “It’s difficult for me to say because I don’t think I’m ‘so special’ or […]