On wanting to be a rich prosimetrist or ‘physics #2’ or ‘a third iteration of a sketch of a philanthropist reflecting on being rich’ (Bernards, NJ; between Monday, September 21st and Friday, October 9th, 2020)

Bernards New Jersey, Between Monday, September 21st and Friday, October 9th, 2020 “On wanting to be a rich prosimetrist or ‘physics #2’ or ‘a third iteration of a first sketch of a philanthropist reflecting on being rich’” For Ashley How surprisingly exciting! For the first time in my 21 years or so[1] of creative writing […]

“he pretends to be enthusiastic” Thomas Mann said of his paradoxical mood on his writing, on Sunday, September 29, 1918 in his diary; I relate, tis’ that kind of Sunday night for me as well (Sunday, August 30th, 2020)

First, I wish to note that last night my mother made my day when she told me that she reads my diary blog! You see, her and I often have in the past possessed quite differing points of view on certain fundamental matters. How strange, now knowing she may read this, for I suspect inevitable, […]

A Glimpse Into How I Gave Myself Atychiphobia: ‘the abnormal, unwarranted, and persistent fear of failure’ (Wednesday, July 29th, 2020)

My therapist aptly noted how I rely at times far too much on other voices to inform my own. What do we mean by “voice” in this case? For let us please be clear that there’s a difference between self expression and that which, by virtue of constant empirical repetition, is as probable a fact […]