Opening myself up to receiving (Sunday, August 9th, 2020)

I was on hold with TD Bank for 19 minutes hoping to obtain some information regarding a “pending transaction.” Then I spoke with a kind lady named Becky. It’s interesting that I did not fully understand the bank’s definition of “pending” transaction. I assumed (I must stop doing that… as much as possible anyway) “pending” […]

Some of the context surrounding the 1st time I dropped out of college And thus set myself up for over a decade of poverty (Saturday, August 8th, 2020)

Money and self-esteem often work in tandem in my case with the exception being that reaching for a most basic and general self-esteem is typically much easier for me than thinking about and discussing money. Having dropped out of college when I was 19, after two semesters of failing classes, certainly didn’t set me up […]

One night with Winnie, the adorable dachshund (Friday, August 7th, 2020)

We started a trial adoption and brought a second dog to our home last night. Unfortunately this morning I drove her back to St. Hubert’s Animal Welfare Center in Madison, New Jersey. What fell awry was that our first and current dog, Yago, did not feel, so far as my wife and I could note, […]

I felt “appreciated” (Thursday, August 6th, 2020)

Yesterday I filed for unemployment insurance, which*[1]I did a grammar check here from The Grammar Bible by Michael Strumpf and Auriel Douglas –2004—“many budding grammarians express confusion over the usage of that and which. Strictly speaking, … Continue reading I should have done months ago. Why didn’t I? Sometimes I just fail to do certain things […]

Drugs & diaries (not together but as separate subjects)(Wednesday, August 5th, 2020)

I’ve got drugs on my mind. In the broadest sense of the term, that is, based on the Oxford English Dictionary definition: “Originally: any substance, of animal, vegetable, or mineral origin, used as an ingredient in pharmacy, chemistry, dyeing, or various manufacturing processes. In later use: spec. a natural or synthetic substance used in the […]

Tornado Watch, Meanwhile I think I may be a ‘Highly Sensitive Person’ (HSP) (Tuesday, August 4th, 2020)

I suppose the headline conversation along the East Coast is Tropical Storm Isaias. It’s the top homepage story on NJ.com. The headline reads: “Tropical Storm Isaias to blast N.J. with up to 75 mph wind gusts, heavy rain. Latest update on timing, track.” https://www.nj.com/weather/2020/08/tropical-storm-isaias-to-blast-nj-with-up-to-75-mph-wind-gusts-heavy-rain-latest-update-on-timing-track.html Of specific concern is the tornado watch https://www.nj.com/weather/2020/08/tornado-watch-issued-for-parts-of-nj-as-tropical-storm-isaias-nears.html The U.S. National […]

Too much CBD oil made me awfully, terribly paranoid (Monday, August 3rd, 2020)

*[Due to having been a touch “out of it” when this entry was originally written I thought it prudent to go through it and just make sure I didn’t swerve into the utterly incoherent as I strive for quite the opposite when I write.]* [At approximately 7:45 am- 8:00 am—ish]: Notes. Policy. Got to make […]

An exhale expressing gratitude for how blessed I am with the privilege and luxury of a day to relax (Sunday, August 2nd, 2020)

Recently we changed the pharmacy we use from Wallgreens to LCS Mail Order Pharmacy. This “mail order pharmacy” concept seemed potentially very troubling to me. Suppose someone does not receive her or his medications in the mail on time? I had put that concern to rest when I spoke on the phone with the seemingly […]

Uttering the “F Word” While Searching for the Fruitful Knowledge-Apples From Trees of Mistakes (Saturday, August 1st, 2020)

One of the most negative thoughts that sometimes overpowers my capacities for reasoning, conferring with basic philosophical principles such as compassion (which in my view one owes to one’s self if one is to offer it to others with any effectiveness) and the optimistic framing of perspective that reiterates life’s and the universe’s (and/or multiverse’s?) […]

A lot of marketing is manipulative bullshit! (“Sharing is caring”; “Let It Be”—sing it, Paul McCartney!) (Friday, July 31st, 2020)

Money can really fuck with one’s mind… worse than almost anything else except for maybe religious beliefs based on pure irrationality. As Bob Dylan sings in the song “It’s Alright Ma (I’m Only Bleeding)”: money doesn’t talk, it swearsObscenity, who really caresPropaganda, all is phony (How do I distinguish the notion of religion “based on […]